Planning is fun for all (well maybe not all)...

I am a planner. I love to plan my day, my meals, my clothes, Caleb's life, Casey's life, our dates... you name it, I love to plan it. Casey on the other hand, he is a fly by the seat of your pants kind of guy. I think this really makes our relationship "fun". When talking about weight loss, I told him that if he really was serious he needed to start having more of a plan. To my surprise, he listened and agreed. They talked at church about listening and responding, it made me think of this.

We planned out his meals for the whole week and today we went shopping. When we got home we went ahead and made breakfast, snacks, lunch, more snacks and dinners to last him a total of 6 days! The total of his grocery bill was $65.03 that is a total of $2.17 a meal. His meal plan is listed below...

Breakfast: 2 hard boiled eggs & 2 pieces of turkey sausage
Snack: Nuts and Yogurt
Lunch: Pork Chop, Brown rice, Black Beans, and steamed veggies
Snack: Fruit (varies every day)
Dinner: Baked Fish, steamed veggies and beans (if he wants them)

I have to say, it was pretty fun being able to shop with him and even more fun being able to come home and cook with him. Everything is all ready and bagged out for each day so he can just take it and go. Cant wait to see how much weight he loses next week... Gotta go, he is ready to head out to the gym! Man I love having him on board with me, makes my life easier!

Winner winner chicken dinner

Casey and I had our 1st weigh in this morning!!! He woke up and had to pee so I followed him in there so we can weigh. After he was done, he said "Okay, lets do this. You are going down!" (them are fightin words). I snapped back that it wasnt fair that he got to pee and I didnt (that could cost me the weigh in, haha hey a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do). So we both finished up and then got out the scale. Casey was anxious to step on and show me what he had lost, so I let him go 1st. To be honest I thought maybe 2 pounds at the most for him... I mean he cheated like 4 times, drank tons of DP, Red Bulls, and never worked out. Well, he stepped on and it was 263.2! That is a 7.6lb loss for him. I instantly got scared. I knew I had lost a big number but I didnt think it was that big.

It is now my turn to weigh in and like I said, I was nervous. But, the scale beeped, beeped and beeped and then BAM 192.0!!! EIGHT FREAKIN POUNDS!!! Take that Casey Joe, in yo face!!! I know I know I only beat him by 0.4 lbs BUT I beat him and that is all that matters. Plus if you really wanna get into it, I am a girl and he has more weight to lose. I think in the coming weeks, we will do it by body % instead of actual weight lost.

With me winning, that means I get to pick our date for next week and my oh so wonderful boyfriend (the loser) gets to pay for it. So I have chosen that we go to Chiluly Nights out in Dallas on Thursday night. It is a blown glass art show that is lite up and then there is also a concert in the gardens. Oh and on Tuesday and Thursdays they have dress up contest, for our night it is Best 80's Costumes! We are about to walk out the door and head to Goodwill and Thrift town to buy furniture and I am going to keep an eye out for 80's things while we are there. Cant wait to have my victory date on Thursday...

Oh and Casey has asked me to write him out a food plan and workout plan. This is so exciting, having him on board with this all. I sat down last night and we wrote him out a food plan (like mine but more calories, stupid men) and we are going to the store tomorrow and then going to prepare everything so he can just grab it and go daily.

Y'all have a great weekend, I know we will...

A girl and a row machine

Monday when I started back at the gym (for my 100th do over), I was told to try the row machine. It would be easier on my knee and give me a good upper body workout as well as a cardio and core workout. I went over there Monday, the machine was occupied. Tuesday, it was the same story. Wednesday, oh my word the same old man is on the machine again. Yesterday I was bound and determined to beat him to the machine... guess what, I did! I got on and told myself I was going to go for 20 minutes (since it was my 1st time). I was about 16 minutes in and that same old man came walking over and had a confused look on his face, probably because I had the machine and he didnt. He stood near by with that look in his eye, you know that gym look of saying "Omg when are they are going to get off? Maybe if I stand here long enough they will move." Dont act like you dont know what I am talking about, we have all done it... or atleast I have! Haha. What this man didnt know is that look triggered my awesome personality and just cost him another 10 minutes of me hogging the machine. I decided since he hogged it Monday through Wednesday I was going to finish my 20 minutes and then add another 10 on top of it. I would have gone to 45 but I knew I had some other machines calling my name. He may not have found it funny, but it gave me that push I needed to go above and beyond.

Oh and this morning, OMG I am SORE!!! I heart the row machine, now if only I can beat that guy EVERY day... mission accepted!

The Casey & Jordan Project

I know I have slacked the past couple of weeks... I could give you an excuse but we both will know its lame so I will spare you the pain of reading it. Bottom line, that fire inside me hasn't fully been started and it keeps dying out way to quickly. But boy oh boy it became lite fully on last Saturday morning... Sit back and relax as I tell you a story that brought me to tears!

Last Saturday I was in the bathroom getting ready for our busy busy BUSY day... Casey and Caleb come walking in there and Casey gets on the scale. He weighs in at 270.0 and says "Man I really need to get this under 250". Now a number is just a number and it doesnt define you, but it can play mean and nasty tricks with you mind. Also, if you know that number you also need to know this number, his height (which is 6'3). Someone who is 5'10 can weigh 270 and look (and feel) way worse then someone who is 6'3 and weighs that. I am 5'10 and I should be weighing about 150-175... which for the past couple of weeks I have been playing around in the 180's. I haven't stepped on the scale in awhile and so after he stepped off, I decided to step on. Something I have never done in front of him... I stepped on thinking the worse will be about low 190's. Ha! I was wrong. I weighed in at exactly 200.0 lbs. I instantly felt defeated. I asked Casey to take Caleb to the living room and I laid in the fetal position on my bed and cried. How can I have let myself get this out of hand? I can say it was because my knee, but what does that have to do with how bad I have been eating? As I laid there and cried, I talked to myself and tried to wrap my head around it. Something just clicked (I think it was the fire inside of me burning at its full potential). I got up, went to the kitchen, threw away ALL of the junk food in the house and then sat next to Casey on the couch. I went into detail how my weight loss is either black (hardcore losing) or white (hardcore not caring), that there is no inbetween and that he is about to see a side of me that he has never seen before. Since that morning, I have been doing very well... The girls at work are even amazed at my ability to shut out the world of crappy foods. I am in this to win this now, I promise you and even more importantly I promise myself.

Casey and I decided that we would make a game out of the weight loss journey the next couple of months. We have a date night once a week and so we decided on Saturday mornings we will weigh in and whoever loses the most weight can pick the date for the next week and the other person has to pay for it (with in reason). You all know how badly I like to win, so let the games begin! Since Saturday, I have been active every day. Sunday I got the boys up and made them take a walk with me. Monday-Thursday I will be going to the gym on my lunch and doing atleast 45 minutes of cardio and then some strength training and core work (as much as my knee allows me to do). Friday-Sunday will be my "off" days from the gym, but I will try and get in some kind of walking on the weekends. I have joined My Fitness Pal and have been hardcore tracking my foods and well as my work outs and I even sat down last night and planned out 2 weeks of meals and prepared grocery list to make it "easier". I will not let this fire burn out, I will NOT let my Mother win... She was the one who said "Never say Never" to me losing my weight and telling her I was not going to gain it all back. (Crappy thing for a Mom to say, right?!)

I do want you to know that I really struggled with posting this blog because I was ashamed of telling everyone I hit 200.0lbs again. But then I realized, its a part of my story, its a part of my life... Someone out there is struggling with exactly what I am and me sharing this could help them out. Saturday is mine and Casey's 1st weigh in to see who wins, lets just say I think our next date night will be picked my yours truly! I'll keep ya posted!

Oh and favor... You are all my friends and my loved ones, please help me! Please dont pressure me into doing something I will regret. Please ask me to do things that will get me active instead of being a bump on a log. Please help remind me of how happy I was when I hit my 100lb loss. Please remind me that 160's are calling my name! I will get there and you can beat your sweet bottom on it... It might not be before my 27th birthday in August, but I will get there. I am hoping by my birthday I am back to the low 180's or lower. Here goes nothing!