Letter to my Husband

Dear Casey,

We both know how much I suck at asking for help and how it can sometimes affect our relationship because I want you to do something without me asking but you have no clue I want you to do it. So, I decided to jot down a few things that have come to mind that I know I will need you to do after Dax is born… without me asking for them every time I need it.

1.    Make sure to tell me you love me out of the blue all day long. Not just once a day, multiple times. My hormones will be through the roof and I will need reassurance that you still love me.

2.    Remind me I am doing a good job and that I am a good mom. Again… hormones!

3.    Tell me you think I am sexy, beautiful, and pretty… even when I haven’t changed my clothes in a couple of days and my hair has been in a ponytail for a week without being washed. I won’t feel pretty, and I probably won’t believe you when you tell me I am… but knowing that my sexy husband thinks I am pretty, will help tremendously!

4.     Kiss me randomly. This doesn’t mean to try and do the deed with me (doctor said no for at least 6 weeks, sorry bud) but just lean down and kiss me… on the forehead, on the hand, on the cheek, on the lips… it doesn’t matter, just do it.

5.    Let me cry. Remember those hormones? Well, I am going to cry… there isn’t anything you can do about it that will fix it for me. Just be there for me, hold me if you can, and let me cry.

6.    Plan time alone for me… After the first few weeks, when I am getting back to normal… plan some time for me to go have a pedicure, have my hair done, or heck even just take a nap alone.

7.    Plan some time alone for US! It doesn’t have to be a fancy date, just somewhere I can have some one on one alone adult time with the man I love. This means you need to plan the date, find a sitter and convince me into leaving the house. I need one on one time alone with you!

8.    Remember that our 5 year old likes to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner. When he wakes up and you are awake, help with breakfast. When lunch time comes around (even if YOU aren’t hungry) remember to feed the 5 year old… the same goes for dinner. There are meals prepared in the freezer and stuff for sandwiches (if there isn’t, you have a wallet, car keys and know how to drive through a fast food place… make sure to take the 5 year old with you).

9.    If I am asleep, please let me sleep. If you need something and can’t find it, please just wing it. I promise I won’t get upset (or maybe I will, blame the hormones). I need sleep and trust me you want me to sleep… you and me both know I am a bear without it. So, unless one of the boys are bleeding or dying, please let me sleep.

10.Sonic Diet Cokes. I really do not need to go into detail about this one because if you have learned anything about me in the past 3 years it should be that I function better, I am a lot nicer, and I love life more when I am drinking a Sonic Diet Coke… just please make sure it is a DC and not a regular coke, the Sonic by our house sometimes sucks and I would hate to have to break down crying (see #5) because they messed up my order.

I love you and I am so thankful that I have you as my partner in crime. Thank you (in advance) for loving me through all of the meltdowns, hormones, tears, etc… you are an amazing man!!

Love you,

Your Little Duck

#BlanketForDax

Well, the blanket is FINALLY finished!!!

 

If you don't know the back story to the blanket, you can read the blog entry here!

 

Before I show you all the blanket I wanted to share some of my thoughts about the whole process. I have to admit, I loved going home each day to check my mail and find fabric packages from friends and family. It was one of the highlights of my day. I even banned Casey and Caleb from checking the mail because I enjoyed it so much. Y'all, its the little things in life! There were days I wouldn't receive anything and then there were days I would have 3 or 4 packages. It was like Christmas morning for me. Haha!

 

I loved reading each card, letter, note, etc. explaining why they chose the fabric they did. It was so heartwarming to have those kind loving words flow off the page. To know that a loved one sat down and took the time to write me a love note after taking time out of their busy life to go to the store and pick out a fabric that reminded them of me. I am not one who likes to inconvenience people and so I was a bit hesitant to do the blanket at first but I am so happy I followed through with it. It really showed me that when people love you, they will make you a priority no matter what.

 

Then the icing on the cake... it started with my newest friend from Georgia... I opened the mail one day and there was a package from GA. I was confused. I only sent the "invite" out to my friends and family... but here is a package of fabric from GA. As I read the card, tears filled my eyes. My newest friend wanted to be a part of the blanket even though 1. I didn't send her an "invite" and 2. We have never met. It was so surreal... Then it happened again, and again, and again... Fabric started coming in from people I have met through my fitness journey, Instagram, Facebook, blogging, etc. So many people wanted to be a part of this blanket for my unborn child. My heart melted!!!

 

Then it was time to start putting the blanket together. To be honest, I didn't know what the final product would end up looking like. I kind of just winged it and prayed a lot over each piece of fabric as I started to sew. It started to take shape and even though I still couldn't see the final product (which is not like me at all) I trusted God and knew that it would come together perfectly. I mean, it had to because it was being made out of love from fabric that loved ones sent me. The back of the blanket was kind of a chore for me because I didn't have enough fabric to repeat the pattern on back so I decided to go with a green piece someone sent me, but didn't have enough so I mixed it with an elephant print that was the same softness. After finishing, another (internet) friend blessed me with 2 more pieces of fabric so I decided to make ties out of them and sew them onto the front of the blanket (look closely and you can see them).

 

The blanket is DONE.... well just missing one thing, Mr. Dax Marshall Flowers!!!

 

The Front

 

The Back

 

We have prayed over this blanket, over each piece of fabric, over the process of making it, over the sewing machine while I was sewing, over the final blanket... and we are so excited in a few weeks to literally wrap our bundle of joy in prayer.

 

We will be taking this blanket to the hospital with us and it will be Dax's 1st blanket. I plan on using the blanket for his newborn photos also. Casey laid on the couch this past weekend holding it and said "just imagine me holding this blanket with my son in it..." Talk about melting my heart!!!

 

If you are a friend on Facebook you know that last night after I put the finishing touches on the blanket, I wept. Dax is our last baby, we have decided that 2 boys is more than enough for our family. Finishing the blanket was so surreal because it means that my days of being pregnant are coming to an end... forever. As bittersweet as that is, it is also very exciting!!!

 

I want to say THANK YOU one last time to each of you who took time out of your busy life's to bless us with fabric. You will never know how much it means to us! We love you all...

 

10 Reasons I am DONE being Pregnant

 

I watched the movie "What to Except When Expecting" this past weekend and it really hit home. It was not my first time to watch it, but it was my first time to watch it being pregnant.

 

The miscarriage story line really tore me up and I bawled like a baby... even though I knew it was going to happen. My broken heart that has been healing, broke again a little bit. But it also reminded me that God has a plan and without my miscarriage happening, we wouldn't be pregnant with Dax right now.

 

BUT... the story I really related to was the lady who basically hated being pregnant. She kept searching for her pregnancy glow and could never find it. However her mother-in-law was pregnant at the same time and was the poster child for a perfect pregnancy.

 

 

Every time she spoke, I would agree with her and Casey would just laugh because he has heard me say those things before. There is a part where she tells her husband she wants to just punch him in the face, but she loves him.... man I would be rich if I had a $1 for every time I said something along those lines to Case.

 

There are a couple parts in the movie where she list different things in pregnancy that are currently happening to her and it got me to thinking... pregnancy isn't always fun! You don't always glow, sometimes the glow is holding the baby in your arms when it is all said and done. Pregnancy isn't always a beautiful experience, some women actually hate it (but love the outcome). We all understand that there are women who cant get pregnant and trust me, we wish that we could snap our fingers and make you pregnant, but we can't. Us pretending to love being pregnant isn't going to help anyone around us... and trust me, it will just make us that much more emotional and hormonal.

 

My name is Jordan and I am NOT a fan of being pregnant... but I love the outcome!!!

 

 

Here are my 10 reasons I am DONE being pregnant:

 

1. Dax loves to kick my ribs out of place... I go see a chiropractor and have relief for about 1-2 days and then KICK KICK KICK and they are popped back out. I swear he thinks it is a game!

 

2. I want to bend down and pick something off the floor without feeling like I am going to pass out from not being able to breathe. Heck last night taking the laundry out of the dryer was a chore, thank goodness Caleb is a big boy and able to help out.

 

3. I miss my clothes. Shallow, yes... but it is the truth! I am tired of maternity panties and really wish I could fit back into my Victoria Secret bra again. Oh and I miss all of my spring/summer dresses and my shorts!!!!

 

4. Getting off the floor is a workout for me. Seriously, this is worse than bending over to pick crap up off the floor. Picking myself off the floor/bed/couch... it is a sight for sure!

 

5. TMI - I miss "one on one" time with my husband. It isn't very comfortable and isn't very "pretty" at 8 1/2 months along... trust me! And that is when I am in the mood, which I am never in the mood because sleep sounds so much better.

 

6. Sleeping... don't get me started. I wish I could sleep a full nights sleep again. I wish I could sleep without having to get up to pee. I wish I could sleep without the house being set on 65. I wish I could just sleep!!

 

7. Charlie Horses!!! Okay, #4 goes out the window when I have a Charlie horse. Seriously, I stand up faster than a ninja when I have a Charlie horse. I eat my bananas daily but sometimes that doesn't even matter.

 

8. Peeing my pants when I sneeze, laugh, cough, look at something the wrong way... hell I am always peeing my pants... so much I bought some panty liners.

 

9. Hello bad gas... go ahead and just blame Dax, because that is what I do. The other day I tooted in my office and it smelled so bad, as I reached for the spray, my boss walked in. I don't remember much of what he said because I was too busy praying he didn't smell the bomb that just went off.

 

10. Last but not least, I am SICK of people asking me how much longer, asking if I am having twins, asking if I am about to pop, asking if I got my due date wrong, telling me I wont go full term... etc. Seriously people! I have around 5 more weeks, I am having one baby, my due date is correct and you are right, I wont go full term because I am planning an induction in my 39th week. Stop being rude!

 

*Sorry if my blog today upsets anyone, that is not my intentions at all. This photo says it all though...*

 

 

Mother's Day Vlog - Caleb

I was going to write a blog about Mother's Day but Caleb LOVES being on camera so we decided to do a Mother's Day VLOG instead.

 

He is so stinking cute, he started off shy (like always) but warmed up quickly!!!

 

P.S. I love that he only thinks I weigh 4 pounds!!!

 

 

 

Happy Mother's Day to all the beautiful Momma's out there!!!