Getting back to before the wedding...

Wouldn’t life be GREAT if weight melted off just as fast as you gain it?

I weighed 161 on my wedding day (March 1^st)… didn’t hit my goal of being in the 150’s but I did hit my goal of being in the best shape of my life! I felt wonderful and like I could take on the world!!!

Then the honeymoon came and went and it was hard getting back into a routine of everyday life. For so long I lived the wedding and strived to be in the best shape of my life for my husband to be. I worked hard to have inches cut out of the dress and for it to be as small as it could be without making me pass out. I strived to be fit and to be skinny. I strived to rock shorts and a bikini on the honeymoon. I achieved all that plus more.

Now, I am back home and everything I strived for is done and completed. I don’t have to worry about the dress anymore. I don’t have to worry about the wedding day. I don’t have any of the planning or stress on my plate, THANK GOD. That also means I don’t have what pushed me the hardest anymore. I have to find something new to drive me and to push me past my limits. I have to train my body to get back on a schedule of going to bed about 9 and waking up at 5. I have to train my body to WANT to work out again. I have to train my body to crave healthy foods and not the crap I have been eating.

And let me tell you… it is hard!!!

The day I got home from the honeymoon, I weighed… y’all ready for this?! I weighed in at 181 pounds!!!! Yep, I gained 20 pounds. How? Well, I gain weight back FAST! All the carbs I ate didn’t help either (the more carbs you eat, the more water your body retains) and I didn’t really drink much water to help flush it all out.

Last Friday I was 170.8, which is a lot better than 181 but still not where I want to be. I feel all flabby and mushy. My clothes are tight and pants don’t even sound fun to wear (I got to a point I loved wearing jeans because they fit so good, now they don’t). I have lost a lot of muscle mass and I hate that part of it all.

It is depressing and I know that without this outlet, without the friends I have in my life now, without my Facebook fitness page, without my 90 day challenge on IG… I would probably swirl into a dark place and just continue the weight gain like I have done before.

But not this time, this time is going to be different! I don’t just want to be in the best shape of my life when I married my husband but I want to be in the best shape of my life for the rest of my life with him. I want to be a healthy fit wife that he deserves. We plan on trying to get pregnant later this year and I want to be healthy going into my next pregnancy, it will not be like my 1^st at all.

I will continue to push on and I will stick to my weekly goals I made for myself yesterday. Next week I start back with boot camp with my trainer. I have also talked my best friend in to starting back up our weekday winner competition to help keep both of us accountable. Basically, we weigh in every Friday and whoever loses the most weight is the winner for the week. It helps us!

I am feeling good today and I know I will get back to where I was before the wedding and I know I will surpass that one day… I just have to keep pushing forward!!!

Time to give it hell!!!

I hope you all have a happy and healthy Tuesday!