Update

I am usually VERY open with my life but the past month or so, I have pulled back a little bit. I have been going through some stuff and trying to work on how I wanted to approach it all. My husband has been trying to get me to see a doctor for a while now and I am so stubborn and haven't gone... but yesterday I went and today I am sharing with you guys and gals!

My entire life I have gained weight easily. If I want to lose weight, I just have to be hardcore with no cheats and work out really hard every single day. Then if I want to maintain... whose kidding, I dont maintain weight. I am either gaining or losing. I have tried every thing to learn to maintain and nothing ever works. It is either black or white for me. It is either losing or gaining. There is no in between and it gets very exhausting at times.

Also, since I was a child I have had a problem with my bowel movements. I have touched on it a bit here and there through this blog. I have been given laxatives and told it was just something I would get over. Well, I have never gotten over it and that too is very exhausting. Think about not going to the bathroom for a week, the pain you will have, then when you go it is nothing that you wanted it to be. Then you end up taking the laxatives you were given for relief but they only work for a day or 2... exhausting!!!

Here the past couple months, I have been fighting with being very sleepy all the time. That isnt like me at all. I just have chalked it up to gaining the weight... my husband thinks its something more.

So, I finally caved and found a doctor that would listen to me instead of tell me its all in my head and give me some medicine that will work for a little bit and then I am back to square one. She let me ramble for about 20 minutes without saying a word and I even broke down crying... my weight is a very senestive topic for me, even more so when it is higher than I want it to be.

It was her turn to talk and for me to listen. She admitted she didnt know everything but she would try some stuff and if it doesnt work, she will send me to some specialist. That was really great to hear! For my weight problem, she ordered blood work to be done and is thinking I have a problem with my thyroid. If that is the case, I will be put on medication. She also ran a few other blood work test to see why I might be tired... Lastly, she ended up putting me on medication for the next couple weeks for my bowel problems. I have to take a high dosage pill every morning and then after those are gone I will finish out with a lower dosage. I have to track all of my potty adventures and report back to her after the pills are done. Also, she gave me a lovely list of foods to stay away from while on this "adventure" and it is funny because a lot of the fruits and veggies that I consider my "go to" foods, they are on that list!!! I will blog about the food list this weekend... I left it at home.

Today I started my pills and hopefully going forward this will be a battle we will be able to win and will no longer be put on the back burner. I am nervous to get my test results back about my thyroid but I am ready for whatever she has to say and will try anything she thinks will work. I want a life that I can maintain and live to the fullest without being hardcore 24/7.

Thanks for going along this journey with me! You guys and gals have really helped me more than you will ever know and I appreciate it so much.

PROGRESS NOT PERFECTION!!!