Monday, October 31, 2016

Goal Crusher!

In September I made a goal that I wanted to get as close as possible to 189.8 by October 1st that I could. Well, I didn't make it by October 1st.

I decided that I would make the same goal again for October. This time I came up with a reward for hitting my goal. I figured it would help me stay on track...

And it helped!!!

What did I do differently?
*Worked out everyday except Sundays - mainly lifting with some cardio here and there
*Did some 2 a days when I had the extra time
*Really focused on going up in weights when lifting
*Changed my cheat meal from Friday night to Sunday afternoon. It helped me stay on track over the weekend.
*Focused on drinking all my water and less diet cokes (still having my DC though)
*Started the No Off Season Challenge by Fit Like Flint!

This morning, Halloween, I hit 189.8!!!!!

My reward - I am going indoor skydiving on Thursday!!!! The 2 times Casey has gone, I was pregnant. Once with Isabelle when I took him for Father's Day and then with Dax when I took him and my niece for her birthday. I am SUPER excited to get in that tunnel and FLY!!!

My next goal - to fit back into these size 10 slacks comfortably!

When I hit this goal, my reward is going to be to buy a new outfit from OllieMarie!!!


Friday, October 21, 2016

October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month

Yes, I have been MIA and I am sorry about that... but I am back for today.

October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. Did you know that 1 in 4 women have miscarriages? I am 1 out of 4. July 10th, 2014 I found out that I lost our sweet baby girl Isabelle Mae Flowers after being on bed rest for a Hematoma for a week and half. The silence that fell in the room when the sonogram was being performed is a "noise" that I will never forget.

Losing Belle was hard, probably one of the hardest things I have ever done in my entire life. And I wouldn't wish it on anyone. The thing that really helped me get through it (the best I could) was being able to open up about it. Being able to share my story. Being able to acknowledge Belle's life, even if it was short lived. Being able to hear other peoples stories. Being able to have other women to relate to so I knew I wasn't alone.

I feel for the women who have no one else to talk to and have to deal with this alone. I wouldn't wish that on anyone. If you have suffered a loss, please find someone (a friend, a parent, a co-worker, a counselor, a pastor, etc) to talk to. I promise it helps. It doesn't take the pain away, but it does help ease it.

You will always be left with the what ifs, the I wonders, the day dreams of what life would have been like...

Would Belle have straight hair like Caleb or curly hair like Dax?
What would her giggle sound like?
Would she be a Momma's girl or have Daddy wrapped around her finger?
Would she wear a bow or rip it out of her hair like I did?
The list goes on and on...

I am very thankful though, because without losing Belle we would have never had Dax. Its a bittersweet thing. One couldn't happen without the other.

I am 1 out of 4...

And I am also one that will always smile when I see a yellow butterfly cross my path because I know it is God's promise that my sweet Belle is in heaven waiting for me to hold her again.


Thursday, September 29, 2016

12 pounds

Yes, I know the scale is bitch and we shouldn't watch it that much. We should pay more attention to measurements and how our clothes fit. I get it. BUT I do pay attention to the scale and well, that is me.

I gain weight FAST... I mean FAST!!! It is a special talent I have. Ha!

On Dax's birthday I was down to 178. Then, this summer I slacked hardcore and gained weight back and I was fluffy and my clothes weren't fitting. I kept going back and forth from 195 to 200. It is where my body is comfortable at and easy to maintain with good-ish eating habits and half ass workouts.

After my birthday in late August, I was tired of being "comfortable" and ready to kick it up a notch. I started training at 202.2... YUCK!!!! I mean it was no 280 where I was last year, but it wasn't 178 where I was earlier this summer. All I could do now is kick some major booty and get back down.

I have been GREAT. Last Friday I weighed in at 193! That means I have lost 9 pounds the past 3 weeks. Kind of proud of myself... and back on the right track to get down to 178 and smaller.

THEN... Caleb's birthday happened.

I did good on his actual birthday and planned to go during his birthday weekend... but I sucked it up hardcore. I shoved cupcakes in my face, they are my weakness. I licked my plate clean when the pizza was served. And I kept pigging out on Sunday with greasy fast food. By Sunday night, I was highly disappointed in myself and I regret pigging out. It was done and nothing I could do to change it now except get back on track.

Monday, I weighed in 12 pounds heavier than I did Friday... yep, I was 205! I about cried. Well, I did cry actually. This is when I usually turn to cupcakes but I decided to get back on track instead. As of today, I am down to 195... still have a few more pounds to go to get back to 193, but I am going in the right direction.

My goal for September was to be 189.9 by October 1st. I really don't think that is going to happen but I am on the right track.

This weekend, I have plans to workout (something I didn't do last weekend) and I have plans to stay on track without a cheat meal until Sunday for dinner.  

I will NOT have a 12 pound gain again... it isn't worth it. I have had to bust my ass this week to get this weight back off and get rid of the bloat. If I would have not cheated all weekend long, I could have gotten really close to my goal of 189.9 or maybe even hit the goal.

189.9 I am coming for ya...


Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Caleb's 7th Birthday

My little buddy is SEVEN!!!

Wednesday we let him skip school, because who likes to go to school on their birthday?! We had breakfast with Grammy (to drop off Dax for the day), then made a trip out to Legoland and finished off the day with some Mexican food for a late lunch.

I wouldn't let him say he was 7 until 5:50pm on the dot... he was highly annoyed on me!

Then on Friday, we had his 1st ever slumber party!!! Let me just say, I am still exhausted from this sleepover. EXHAUSTED!!! I invited 14 boys and we ended up having 8 of them show up. I really thought only 3-4 would show up but I guess when you have a free sitter for a Friday night, you accept! I mean, I would!

Having a pool in our backyard helped pass the time. I let Casey hang out with them while I cleaned up the mess in the house... which just got messier when they came back in.

I never knew that Caleb's costume collection would come in handy like this before. They LOVED dressing up and playing superheroes and fighting each other. Please look at Caleb's serious face... he takes being Superman VERY seriously!!!

The boys fell asleep around 12-1am so I thought they would sleep in.. but I was wrong. I went to pick up donuts at 7am and when I came back, they were ALL WIDE AWAKE and ready to eat and play superheroes again... we didn't have plans to leave the house until 10:30am so I had to find stuff for them to do until then. Luckily, it was pretty outside so I sent them out to play while I picked up the house.

I told the parents that I could drive the boys up to the bowling alley where the party would continue. I told them the party was from 11-1 and Flash would be there at 12. No one showed up to help with their boys until the party was over... I guess I should have been more clear. So that meant not only was I trying to throw a party, talk to my family and friends but I was also in charge of 8 little boys because none of the parents showed up for the party. It was a huge bust and I have decided I will never do a slumber party AND a party again... it will be one or the other!

Flash was a HIT at the party! Caleb loved having him there to show off and play with. We had Spiderman at his 5th, Batman at his 6th, Flash at his 7th... I wonder who he will have at his 8th, if he still is in love with superheroes!! I hope he is!!!

After all was said and done, we had an amazing birthday celebration!!! I am glad it is over though, it was exhausting, expensive and I ate WAY too much...

Caleb Scott aka Chubba Bubba,
I hope your 7th year is the BEST one yet. Momma, Case and Daxy love you to the moon, to the moon, to the moon!!!!