Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Today is the day!

Today is a day I have been waiting for since waking up from surgery on April 12... today I have my final x-ray and I will be released from the doctor!!!! I couldn't be more excited. With being released, I also am getting their list of things I am no longer allowed to do. That list kinda scares me but that means I will be one step closer to being back in the gym with Lo!!! Monday I went to PT and really impressed them there. I was able to move up to another level of excerises and also was told that starting next week I will go down to once a week and by the end of the July I will most likely be released from PT. Its so nice to finally see the light at the end of the tunnel...

As for my weight, I know I am probably back up the couple of pounds I lost from being sick but really I am okay with that. My shorts still fit and my "fat" jeans (size 13) still can be pulled on and off with out unbuttoning... and that is all that matters right now, right?! I really want to be back in my 10's (really REALLY wanna be back in my 8's) but I know until I am fully released from both the doctor and PT, that probably wont happen. Here is to being released from the doctor today and being just that much closer to being back into my 10's!

Oh and I changed my weigh in days to Friday. This Friday is the 22nd and that is exactly 2 months til my birthday, so I figured I would just stick with that... And plus Friday means I have 2 more days to get a few more ounces off (haha)!

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Week 5 results

Finally, I lost more then a couple of ounces... this morning I was 186.6 pounds, that is a total of 2.2 pounds lost since last week!!! I would like to say thank you to the awful stomach bug I had yesterday, without it I dont think I would be this much closer to my goal. A strict diet of crackers and sprite really did my body good. Haha! For real though, that bug was AWFUL and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy (you know who you are, lol). The only thing good about having that bug is it took my cravings for all the fat nasty food away and has left me scared to eat fatty foods again (for now). I am going to take it easy today and add soup to my cracker and sprite diet and hopefully I can keep it down.

Side note - The gym has been great. I am starting to feel like my old self again... Being able to go in there and lift weights, do some core work and get some cardio in, man it feels so right. Today I am going to stay on the bike a bit longer instead of doing my arm weights, boy oh boy are my arms sore as hell... but, I know sore is good (sometimes)!

Yay, I finally lost... I am one happy gal and even more so now that I am back in the gym. I know that I will be able to blast off the rest of this weight just in time for my birthday. Hey 164.5 pounds or lower, I am coming for you!

Oh and Happy Flag Day Y'all...!

Monday, June 11, 2012

1st day back at the gym

This morning I was SO excited to get back in the gym! Walking in there for the 1st time in almost 4-5 months, it felt so surreal. I changed as fast as I could and was so ready to get out there and workout. Every time before, I would get on the treadmill and run or get on the elliptical and really break a sweat, but I knew this time would be different and I prepared myself for that. I am glad I prepared myself because if I hadn't I would have probably given up after the 1st couple minutes on the bike. I am very slow at getting the pedals up to speed, but once I get going and get in my grove I am okay. Well in order to keep the bike turned on, you have to pedal a certain speed... I think the 1st minute or two, all I did was fight to speed up just to keep the bike from turning off. I was getting so annoyed! I felt like the lady next to me was looking at me thinking "what a freaking idiot, cant even figure out how to work a bike!".... Looking back now, it was kind of comical. Haha!

I did complete my 10 minutes of the bike and then decided to go finish all my PT exercise on a mat. I gathered all the equipment I would need and sat down and started doing my "workout". I was doing really well UNTIL these body builder guys sat next to me and started do their workouts and stretches. That same feeling I had from the lady on the bike, I now was getting it from them. There I was sitting with both legs straight in front of me just tightening my quad and releasing. All the while they are next to me lifting heavy weights, looking all buff and stuff.

Getting back on the machines to do upper body was a little bit better. There wasn't anyone around so I was able to do a refresher class and read all the directions on the machines so that I could do them properly. Man being out of the gym for this much time, you almost have to re-teach yourself everything. Then on top of re-teaching, I am having to learn new workouts that I can do without harming my knee. It was a challenge, but I did it.

I have to say, no matter what those people thought or what I thought they were thinking... I can careless. I went in there, did what I planned on doing plus some and left feeling great. I have to just keep reminding myself, this process is suppose to take time and I do not need to rush it because I do not ever want a knee replacement. So I will roll with the punches, take what life hands me and keep taking my butt back to the gym each day on lunch.

Friday, June 8, 2012

Happy as a clam!

I am as happy as happy can be BECAUSE I am about to unfreeze my gym membership!!!!! Eek, this (use to be) gym rat is one excited girl right now!

As happy as I am, there are a LOT of "rules" on me when I go back. I am only allowed to ride the bike for a total of 10 minutes a day on a very low/mid resistance and I am only allowed to do this on days that I do NOT have PT. I am allowed to work on my upper body and my core, BUT I am not allowed to do any thing that involves moment with my knee (squats, lunges, jogging, step ups, etc.). And, I am allowed to do my PT at home exercises at the gym now instead of doing them in a closed office at work. Hopefully a few more weeks and I will be released to work with Lo again...

Those of you who REALLY know me, know that when I started losing weight I became VERY addicted to working out. After I lost my 101 pounds, I kinda backed off a lot and then struggled with finding a happy medium. Well, I think now that I have strict set rules on me and I have workout buddies at work that will go with me on lunch and make me go when I don't want to... I think I am starting to find my happy medium.

Now that I am able to start back at the gym (VERY slowly), I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. The end of the tunnel for me right now holds goals like being under 164.4 (my lowest weight) by my 27th birthday (August 22, that's 2 months and 2 weeks away)!

Plus on top of all this, I put on a pair of jeans today knowing they were going to be tight and probably not fit... boy was I wrong! I can put them on and take them off with out unbuttoning them... Love my jeans from Rue!

If I could jump, I would so be jumping for joy right now!!!

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Week 4 results

Dang it! I stayed the same... 188.8 pounds. I am really getting ancy to get back into the gym, I know once I do the weight will start coming off much quicker. That day will be here before I know it though. Heck, yesterday my PT put me on the bike to rock back and forth and we realized I was able to go all the way around! It may not sound like much, but after you have had your knee cap reconstructed and your shin chisseled off and bolted back down... going around all the way on the bike is a HUGE accomplishment. Plus, it means I am that much closer to becoming and Ox. My PT made a deal with me, the day she thinks I am an Ox is the day she will release me.

One of my friends pointed out that a couple of weeks ago was my 1 year of losing the weight. It made me really stop and think... Maintaining the weight loss is WAY harder (to me) then losing it was. I am 24 pounds what I was last year around this time but with my knee surgery, I am very okay with that. I still have kept my promise to myself and in the past year I have not been over 200 pounds... 1 year down and many many many more to go! Here is to making this next year even better. It is all a learning process and I am nowhere near wanting to give up and throw in the towel. Keeping my weight off will be an uphill battle for the rest of my life and I knew that when I signed up to lose the weight, so here is to another year of working out, eating cleaner, and giving the scale hell...!