Follow Up With The Doctor

This morning I had my follow up apt with my doctor about my crappy problems I have been having... pun intended!

1st let me just say, I love this new doctor I have been seeing! My husband started seeing her as well and today when I went for a visit she asked about a couple personal things that Case had mentioned... like how Six Flags was for Mother's Day and if we have been able to go rock climbing yet. I love doctors that actually care about their patients.

I had been keeping a poop log... isn't that so much fun, knowing that after you go to the bathroom, you get to log it down in a journal. Ha! She reviewed that with  me and was very pleased with my results. I had to have some blood work done again to make sure it is still all good after a month of taking the medication and I should have the results back tomorrow or Friday. She gave me another month worth of the medication and she wants to see me back after that. The good news is that she doesn't think I will have to go to a GI... Random,  I wonder how many GI's are named Joe. Hahaha!

I am very happy this medication is working for me but I am also kinda bummed because I hate taking medication. However, I know I could back off the medication if I tried a but harder to eat the right foods from the list of foods she gave me. I will admit, I wasn't that great on avoiding the foods she asked me to avoid... I need to really get my diet in check again. Why does food have to taste so dang good?!

Oh and to answer the doctors questions, Six Flags for Mother's Day was a BLAST and I think we might make it a yearly tradition. And we haven't been able to go rock climbing yet, but it is in the books and we both look forward to that date night.

I am a cheater

Saturday is my weigh in day but I cheated and weighed today... oops!!!

I have been doing so well this week and I feel less bloated too. I did miss the gym yesterday but I ended up getting a home "workout" in by picking up around the house more than I usually do... kinda a deep cleaning if you will. I felt great and was full of energy.

So back to this morning... I have lost 2 pounds this week. Which is GREAT but not my goal I had set and there is no way possible (unless I cut off a boob or something... hmmm, jk) that I will make it to my goal by Saturday.
The way I see it, I am on the right track and I am getting there slowly but surely. I am learning how to maintain and slowly loose without being balls to the walls hardcore and still enjoying little "cheats" here are there.

Am I bigger than I would like to be, well duh...
Am I happy with my life, YES
Am I beating myself up over my weight, not as much as I use to do...

Finding a balance in life is what I think this journey is all about and I am slowly learning that. In the midst of learning, I have gained and lost, lost and gained, but I am still here kicking and pushing forward.

At the end of the day you have to figure out what your journey is all about for yourself and figure out if where you are in life is making you happy or not.

Who knows, maybe after we have a baby I will get a wild hair up my butt and go balls to the walls hardcore again and compete in a fitness competition one day... but for now, I am going to love my life and love my body!!!

It is all about progress NOT perfection!!!

Upper Body/Cardio Workout

Do you want to spice up your upper body workout? Try this out... I found this photo on Pinterest and did this for my workout today. WOW!!! Intense and my arms were jello afterwards.

Eating wise I am doing great today and have been sticking to my plan and tracking everything I eat. Tracking sucks but it is helping. I am ready to see what my trainer comes up with and hopefully start that ASAP.

If you end up trying out the workout above, let me know how you like it!!!

Goals!

I am a goal oriented person. Are you?

I usually always make a goal on Sunday night and tell my husband to help hold me accountable. Then come the next weekend, I reward myself (clothes, movie, me time, sometimes food...)

My goal isn't always fitness related but this week it is and I am sharing it with you!

It is no secret I have gained some weight since my wedding. Boo! So, this week's goal is to be back at 179 by Saturday... I am currently 184 this morning. That is 5 pounds in 6 days. Yes that is a litte much to lose in 6 days BUT it is newly gained weight and it should fall off rather quickly. Now when I get back down to around 175, that is where my body is most comfortable and the goal will be more like to lose 1-2 pounds in a week. But for now, I have set my bar high and I am going to achieve it.

How?

I have been slacking on my food more than I like to admit, so I am getting that in order... I have seeked out help from my trainer who is writing me a food plan as we speak. Until I receive my plan, I am going to stay away from as much processed foods as possible and only eat fresh meats, fruits and veggies.

I also have been doing mainly cardio at the gym and well lets be honest, I have been doing it half ass. I am going back to lifting today with a dash of cardio here and there.

Lastly, I plan on blogging every day this week! I have made myself a reminder at my desk so I dont get side tracked and forget. I will be blogging the good, the bad and the ugly the next 5 days... so get ready!

I have my goal set, I have my "rules" set and I am ready for it to be Saturady.

Time to hit the gym!!!!

Oh Poop!

Hey y'all, sorry I have been so quiet the past couple days but if you read my last blog post, you kinda know why. Dealing with some "medical" stuff and trying to find balance in life can be a struggle sometimes... but I am slowly getting there!!!

I do have to report, that since starting my medicine the doctor put me on, I have been living a normal life (in the bathroom) and it is heaven!!! Never thought I would say that being able to pooh is heaven, but it really is!!!

I have been staying off the scale because I am really trying to not focus on my weight and instead focus on being happy and living life. I have gained some weight back since the wedding and there are no excuses, just I dont want to be hardcore right now. I would like to get back down to where I was, but right now I am enjoying not always being at the gym and not always saying no to going out to eat and having a dessert here and there.

Oh and the diet coke saga... well Casey quit dipping and so I said that I would quit diet coke for 2 weeks to support him. Well I am a weak wife and I caved. I had a diet coke yesterday and it was glorious. I called and told him and he just laughed and said "Hell, I am just amazed you made it 5 days..." So there you have it, he had no faith in me! Haha!! He has not dipped in almost a week, tomorrow will be a week to be exact!!! I am so proud of him...

Now let me save you the trouble... I know diet coke is bad. I know diet coke has aspartame in it. I know all the "bad" facts about it... however, I also know that when I have a sweet craving I usually fill it with diet coke instead of a cake. The 5 days I didnt drink diet coke, I had more sweets then I have had in a long time. For me, drinking a diet coke to fill my sweet tooth is a LOT better than eating a whole damn cake and/or (more like and because I could do both) having 5 ice cream cones! So yes, I know it is bad so you dont have to preach at me please and thank you. Oh and one last thing, you should never preach at anyone... I am sure you are not living your life perfect so dont tell them they have to live their life that way.

Someone once preached at me for drinking diet coke while she lite up her cigerette and had a beer in her cup... hmmm yeah... not happening!

Okay, I am getting off my soap box now. Ha!

I want to wish all of you mommas out there a HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! I hope you all stop and try to see how your children see you instead of being so hard on yourself... if you cant do it all the time, just try it for this weekend! I am going to... My mission, not to call myself fat once this weekend! I am not fat, I am Jordan, I am Caleb's wonderful momma who he loves no matter how much I weigh!!!

I wanna leave you with a couple photos of my Momma and me when I was little! I love you old lady and I am thankful you are the mom God picked out for me... even if you are a little bit crazy!!!

Happy Friday!!

Update

I am usually VERY open with my life but the past month or so, I have pulled back a little bit. I have been going through some stuff and trying to work on how I wanted to approach it all. My husband has been trying to get me to see a doctor for a while now and I am so stubborn and haven't gone... but yesterday I went and today I am sharing with you guys and gals!

My entire life I have gained weight easily. If I want to lose weight, I just have to be hardcore with no cheats and work out really hard every single day. Then if I want to maintain... whose kidding, I dont maintain weight. I am either gaining or losing. I have tried every thing to learn to maintain and nothing ever works. It is either black or white for me. It is either losing or gaining. There is no in between and it gets very exhausting at times.

Also, since I was a child I have had a problem with my bowel movements. I have touched on it a bit here and there through this blog. I have been given laxatives and told it was just something I would get over. Well, I have never gotten over it and that too is very exhausting. Think about not going to the bathroom for a week, the pain you will have, then when you go it is nothing that you wanted it to be. Then you end up taking the laxatives you were given for relief but they only work for a day or 2... exhausting!!!

Here the past couple months, I have been fighting with being very sleepy all the time. That isnt like me at all. I just have chalked it up to gaining the weight... my husband thinks its something more.

So, I finally caved and found a doctor that would listen to me instead of tell me its all in my head and give me some medicine that will work for a little bit and then I am back to square one. She let me ramble for about 20 minutes without saying a word and I even broke down crying... my weight is a very senestive topic for me, even more so when it is higher than I want it to be.

It was her turn to talk and for me to listen. She admitted she didnt know everything but she would try some stuff and if it doesnt work, she will send me to some specialist. That was really great to hear! For my weight problem, she ordered blood work to be done and is thinking I have a problem with my thyroid. If that is the case, I will be put on medication. She also ran a few other blood work test to see why I might be tired... Lastly, she ended up putting me on medication for the next couple weeks for my bowel problems. I have to take a high dosage pill every morning and then after those are gone I will finish out with a lower dosage. I have to track all of my potty adventures and report back to her after the pills are done. Also, she gave me a lovely list of foods to stay away from while on this "adventure" and it is funny because a lot of the fruits and veggies that I consider my "go to" foods, they are on that list!!! I will blog about the food list this weekend... I left it at home.

Today I started my pills and hopefully going forward this will be a battle we will be able to win and will no longer be put on the back burner. I am nervous to get my test results back about my thyroid but I am ready for whatever she has to say and will try anything she thinks will work. I want a life that I can maintain and live to the fullest without being hardcore 24/7.

Thanks for going along this journey with me! You guys and gals have really helped me more than you will ever know and I appreciate it so much.

PROGRESS NOT PERFECTION!!!