Letting the cat out of the bag...

This morning on the way to work I was listening to "Lose Yourself" by Eminem because it always gets me so pumped up. It made me think, I need to let the cat out of the bag on my big secret I have been carrying around. The song says it perfectly: Look, if you had one shot or one opportunity to seize everything you ever wanted in one moment would you capture it, or just let it slip?

I am a go getter, I like to set the bar high and accomplish those goals. Basically, you can call me a goal digger!

Last August when I started the Kelsey Byers Challenge, she asked what our goals were for the 12 week challenge. I always try to make a lot of small goals and one overall HUGE goal. That way when I hit small goals, I feel like I have achieved something awesome and I don't feel defeated because I still have a long time to go before I hit my HUGE goal.

Example of Small Goals I have set since August 2015:

* To feel sexy again

* To lose 5 pounds

* To wear a certain outfit

* To lift a little bit heavier or more reps

* Log my food daily

& the list could go on and on

Y'all ready to hear my HUGE goal this time around?!

In Spring of 2017... I, Jordan Flowers, WILL step on stage and compete in a Bikini Fitness Competition!!!

My goal isn't to get huge muscular but to have muscle definition and have the confidence to wear that little bikini and heels. I have zero intentions on placing (maybe that will change as I start to train more for it) but I am focused more on doing it for myself and being able to share my story of being close to 300 pounds and then working my ass off to get on stage!!

My goal is to look like these lovely ladies... maybe just less boob because lets be honest, what I have now is all Victoria Secret!

I will say that Casey is totally on board with this and cant wait to show off pictures to his friends.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Want to know my biggest fear of this goal? Walking on stage in those heels, my knee giving out (like it does from time to time), falling and my lady parts being exposed to the judges because that little bikini doesn't cover much. HAHAHA! Could you imagine?! I would probably just lay there and not move hoping no one saw me!!!!

I tell you my goal now because it is one year away, I am really focusing on it now and really trying to build up my muscles and I am not so worried about my weight right now. When I get done with this 12 weeks of muscle building, I am going to start cutting and leaning out and see where I am. Later this summer, I plan on meeting with a coach and seeing what I need to do from there, obviously it will still be too far out to train but I will get a better grasp on what needs to be done because honestly I am going into all of this blindly.

I tell you my goal so you can hold me accountable and help motivate me to keep going. This next year isn't going to be easy but then again if it was easy, everyone would be doing it.

I told my Jessie's Girls group my goal first to see their reaction and they were SO supportive and told me to go on with my bad self! One even offered to sponsor me with a suit... how awesome is that? I told them that I was nervous to tell other people because of how they would react and they all told me to not care what anyone else says, if it is something I want to do, do it!!!

So with that being said... if you have any negative comments towards this goal of mine, please keep them to yourself!

You guys I am so excited to really see my body transform this next year and I get even more excited when I think about stepping on that stage and seeing my friends and family out there cheering me on!!! EEK!!!

Happy Friday and I hope you all have a great weekend!!!